I was growing in this stage and in some moment - I don't remember when exactly- all this religious discourse seemed a little bit false and contradictory, and every day more and more. People and church preaches a lot of things and are just words, they sell an image, but they doesn't do actions to improve anything. In some moment I just left all rules and beliefs from church and bible but I still believed in God...
But a beautiful day I realized that I wasn't leave the idea of god because I didn't want to do it, I was lying to my self!! It's difficult to forget something you believed all your life BUT IT WAS NECESSARY
Now I think that all religions are just ways of social control, and the idea of god hasn't any sense to me... I see that people obviously feels less alone inventing a god that can save them, but that doesn't make it real.
There is a song that I really like and that was significative to me when I was trying to hanging on the idea of god but it was impossible!!! just hasn't sense to me: Loosing My Religion - REM
It's a good song :) Enjoy it!
